I have finally gotten around to showing you all my Project 365 photos in an organized fashion. This will updated as often as I can, and I will continue adding on the new months for as long as I can go for. Technically, my "year" goes from 06/20/07 to 06/20/08, but I am going to keep taking a photo a day for as long as I can until I miss a day.
( THE PHOTOS BY MONTH )
* month grid + idea + camera icon from the lovely
sprytaen
** This hasn't been updated in awhile 'cause I fail :x
( THE PHOTOS BY MONTH )
* month grid + idea + camera icon from the lovely
** This hasn't been updated in awhile 'cause I fail :x
My list of raves that I've gone to and photographed is starting to get a bit long, and it feels really pretentious to have it all listed out in my forum signatures, so I will instead list it here, and will update this entry every so often as I attend and photograph more parties.

( The List... )


( The List... )

- Music:interpol .. narc

I know I haven't made a legit update in, well.... months, to be honest. Compared to last summer, I am hating this summer, although being with Phil is a definite plus of this summer.
I failed my self portrait Project 365 as of yesterday. I realized it this morning, when I grabbed my camera to prove my hair looked kinda cute all clipped back. I'm not really too upset/mad about failing it, more just annoyed. I haven't really been enjoying taking them for awhile, and have been considering just straight up quitting for a few weeks. I'm gonna try to restart on August 29th, because that day will be amazing.
My summer has really just been about the weekends, Phil, getting through the weeks, and anxiously awaiting August 29th. On that day, I'll move back to UConn and in to my single in East Campus. I intend to dye my hair rainbow that day. I will be attending Mario Party 2 that night - a rave that is sure to be epic. And two days later, I'll begin my senior year at UConn. It won't be my last year, and but it will technically be my senior year.
The past week or so was pretty shitty, because I've been sick the whole time for no apparent reason, although it might be a head cold or just stress. I keep coughing, some sneezing, sore throat in general, and a near-constant headache, sometimes to the point of most sounds hurting, but usually just a dull ache. My mom gave me DayQuil or whatever, but it didn't help, so she is gonna get me something today and hopefully it'll start going away.
It is still amazingly daunting to write everything out. So much has happened and so many things have been going through my head, yet I never seem capable of writing them.
Here's to hoping.
- Mood:
crappy - Music:oddy .. promo june 2009
Several of you have asked so, here is my Phil:

( He is capable of not pulling crazy faces, too! )
I need more good ones of him, but you get a general idea.
We've been together, officially, since Nov 7, although we had a thing going for a solid month or so before that. He is pretty damn perfect for me and he makes me so amazingly happy <3
Completely unrelated, but all this rain is wrecking me.

( He is capable of not pulling crazy faces, too! )
I need more good ones of him, but you get a general idea.
We've been together, officially, since Nov 7, although we had a thing going for a solid month or so before that. He is pretty damn perfect for me and he makes me so amazingly happy <3
Completely unrelated, but all this rain is wrecking me.
- Mood:
tired - Music:s3rl .. also presents
Okay, this post is a plea for help.
If anyone has any advice on how to remove the scent of cat piss from carpet and the air in general, please tell me!
I am still cleaning up my room, and I keep finding areas the fucking cats pissed on :[ To be safe, I'm throwing out a lot of items, but stirring up the air/debris in those areas has my room now reeking of cat urine, not to mention items that are still somewhere in the room that still have urine on/in them. This is all from the past year at school, since my mother is fucking crazy and kept trapping the cats in my room, so in revenge they peed all over the room. I am washing, recycling, donating, or throwing out everything, because it is sometimes hard to tell if an item has pee on it, and I'd rather be safe. That and I generally have too much stuff and too many random, useless "things" in my room to begin with.
But yeah. Any tips on how to remove the scent from carpet and the air would be greatly appreciated! <3
If anyone has any advice on how to remove the scent of cat piss from carpet and the air in general, please tell me!
I am still cleaning up my room, and I keep finding areas the fucking cats pissed on :[ To be safe, I'm throwing out a lot of items, but stirring up the air/debris in those areas has my room now reeking of cat urine, not to mention items that are still somewhere in the room that still have urine on/in them. This is all from the past year at school, since my mother is fucking crazy and kept trapping the cats in my room, so in revenge they peed all over the room. I am washing, recycling, donating, or throwing out everything, because it is sometimes hard to tell if an item has pee on it, and I'd rather be safe. That and I generally have too much stuff and too many random, useless "things" in my room to begin with.
But yeah. Any tips on how to remove the scent from carpet and the air would be greatly appreciated! <3

Recently, I've been really hating my job.
I always leave supremely pissed off and hating absolutely everyone, but nowhere is really hiring,
and I need to money. I spend my time there either hating it, fantasizing about raving, or, rarely,
enjoying it. I only really enjoy it when people are leaving me the hell alone so I can do what I
need to, a.k.a. fetch bagels and make drinks. I like making drinks. It's weirdly zen. Whenever I
am enjoying being a barista and everyone else around me is freaking out, I automatically think of
that one bit in "Fight Club" (novel) where he talks about photo copying haiku's, and getting all
ZEN in everyone's HOSTILE little FACES. It is exactly how I feel when I'm just working on drinks
and all the cashiers and managers and line people are wigging out. I just want to start spouting
poetry, but I'd probably just get fired for being rude or some such nonesense.
On the other hand, I've been really enjoying my relationship with Phil.
He is so amazingly perfect for me. I don't want to jump the gun and be all "OMGWE'REGONNAGETMARRIED"
or be all "OURBABIESAREGONNAROCKLOL". I could easily see it happening, though, and I'd be pretty god
damn happy if it worked out like that. Even if it doesn't, these past... seven or so months with
him have been amazing. I miss him when he isn't around me, and when he is around me, we both can't
stop smiling and just looking at each other and shaking our heads at our good luck. I love him, and
he loves me, and that is all that matters.
And he has been taking me driving!
Sleep time for me.
I hope you're all well.
<3
- Mood:
pensive - Music:crosed the line...
I need to get away,
Run away,
Right away.
There are so many times when I wish I wasn't still in school, so that I could just leave.
Sometimes I even consider just dropping out so I can leave sooner, but I know I'd regret it.
At the same time?
It is always so amazingly tempting.
- Music:frisky & hujib .. get away (dougal & gammer remix)
I keep not sharing my 365 shots on here. I have started adding them to Flickr, then deviantART, then posting them at my Blogger account, but don't make it around to sharing them here.
So if you're impatient or only care about my photos, I'd suggest watching me at one of those sites as opposed to this one. Nonetheless, here are the past few days' 365...
( 009 through 012 )

And lucky number thirteen to finish it off.
I finalized my schedule for next semester last night, although I am unsure about my film class and my accounting class. The accounting class is supposed to be good, but it doesn't count for anything, and I still have one or two requirements to fulfill for UConn's General Education guidelines. If I can find a Q course that isn't ridiculous and that fits in my schedule well, I will switch into that instead. The film class in a German Cinema W, W meaning it is writing intensive, which I have no issues with. I just have no idea if it is going to suck or not. I want to switch into this Italian film course, where you watch all these gangster movies, but I haven't been able to do so yet.
So if you're impatient or only care about my photos, I'd suggest watching me at one of those sites as opposed to this one. Nonetheless, here are the past few days' 365...
( 009 through 012 )

And lucky number thirteen to finish it off.
I finalized my schedule for next semester last night, although I am unsure about my film class and my accounting class. The accounting class is supposed to be good, but it doesn't count for anything, and I still have one or two requirements to fulfill for UConn's General Education guidelines. If I can find a Q course that isn't ridiculous and that fits in my schedule well, I will switch into that instead. The film class in a German Cinema W, W meaning it is writing intensive, which I have no issues with. I just have no idea if it is going to suck or not. I want to switch into this Italian film course, where you watch all these gangster movies, but I haven't been able to do so yet.
- Mood:
blah - Music:ilp .. lost days liquid mix
Does anyone else feel depressed if they look around Flickr too much?
Whenever I'm on there for more than five minutes, I just end up feeling crappy and wanting to hide from my camera.

What am I going to do if I'm not good enough?
Whenever I'm on there for more than five minutes, I just end up feeling crappy and wanting to hide from my camera.

What am I going to do if I'm not good enough?
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:death cab for cutie .. soul meets body









